Saying Goodbye

What was it I was just talking about? Saying Goodbye, in order to move forward? Yikes...who am I kidding. I flew Morgan and Jacinta out for Larry's 50th birthday. I tried to get Nathan and Nicki, but it didn't work out..(for lots of reasons) but, nonetheless the party was a smash hit! At 7 a.m. this morning, Larry and Morgan headed to the Van, so he could take her to the airport. I made her little sausage things to take with her, and gave her a hug. Then she buried her face in my neck and cried and cried...I don't think she is one of the things I wanted to say goodbye too, in order to make room for the future. I think its even harder with us, because it was just the two of us forever...

wait, there is a squirrel in the bird feeder..gotta grab the camera..brb got it..ok, got the photo, chased the squirrel..now the cardinals are back.

Back to the two of us...there are just so many little things I wish were different, things I wish I had done differently, things I can do now with the girls that I could not do then. She has grown up to make me so proud, but nothing stops me from worrying, and thinking she would be better off close by. Letting go sounds so easy, doesn't it?Watching her grow up, the best and the worst thing I have ever been through. Enough melancholy...that squirrel is back...chasing my birds. He is awfully cute though...
Make every second count...